Just One Day Later…
So just one day after writing about “…one of the best weeks of my life,” in terms of loving people the way Jesus commanded us to, I fell to the earth like a shot bird. Late Saturday morning Kathy and I entered into a discussion, that quickly evolved into an argument, which quickly escalated into a big fat argument.
A 20 Second Sound Bite From A Counselor
That’s unusual for us, to find ourselves in the midst of a big fat argument. Discussions and “spirited disagreements” are the norm. But a few days before, I was listening to a podcast and heard a part of a conversation with a counselor. And the counselor said, when men become angry or frustrated they tend to remove themselves from the situation. Because when a man becomes angry or frustrated he can enter into fight mode. And by removing himself he gives himself time to process the cause of his anger so he can address the situation calmly.
As I listened to this counselor, I thought to myself, “Yeah, that’s me. That’s what I often do.” I typically go for a walk and pray in that situation.
But this counselor went on to say, when men do that, it’s misinterpreted by women. For instance, when a wife expresses disagreement and a husband doesn’t engage his wife, when he removes himself either physically or emotionally, his wife interprets that to mean he doesn’t care.
How I Failed
So when this discussion with Kathy started, I had a feeling it would escalate. But I remembered the words of the counselor and I thought to myself, “I think I’ll stay and engage Kathy–so she know’s I care.”
And that’s what I did. And the result was awful. It ended when I threw a dish into the sink, (it was a plastic dish but later Kathy told me it cracked anyway), and I stormed out of the house slamming the door behind me. And when I slammed the door I managed to smash two of my fingertips.
Now what? My fingers were already changing colors. At that moment I was too filled with pride to go back inside for ice and ibuprofen. So I jumped in the car and drove–rather aimlessly.
How God Responded
But after twenty minutes of driving around with throbbing fingertips–I decided my need for ice and ibuprofen was greater than my pride. So I headed toward home. About a half mile from the house I hit the radio button and turned on KPDQ True Talk 800 AM, Portland’s Christian radio station.
These were the first words that came from the car radio speakers:
“…the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God.” James 1:20
I walked in the door and apologized to Kathy.
Next time I’ll go for a walk–and pray.
[Image via alex de carvalho – Creative Commons]